Sometimes I feel like the character Winston in George Orwell's book 1984. Everything he did was monitored. My employer monitors my time on the phone, time on calls,is able to listen to my calls if they desire, what I do on the internet, listens to what I speak about with my coworkers, looks at my sales of product and how many add ons I am able to make.
Winston never lets anyone know how he really feels, lives in pure orthodoxy to the culture of the party. Yells when they yell, laugh when they laugh, claps when they clap. Finally, in order to just keep his own identity maintained, he starts writing in a journal about his life, which ultimately leads to his demise when the thought police finally catch him.

Why does work have to seem like such a burden? Why can't their be a job where you like it and look forward to going to work? I know what you're thinking-"hey dumbass-Why don't you get another job?"

You're right, and I am looking, but like any other family guy, I have to take care my family and find a better job before leaving this job....being an adult sucks...