"It finally happened"
A week after the big event, things are still kind of strained. My relationship with Larry(my direct supervisor) has changed for the worse. Of course, there is no real love loss with the GM. I don't know if it is a permanent thing or not. Before that meeting, we got along good most of the time and even joked around on occasion, but that's been a thing of the past. He's really looking for me to do something wrong, and has tried to confront me about a couple of things, before I pointed out he needed to talk to someone else.
The biggest change is what has happened on the inside of me. I feel so much more calm now. I know I could lose my job anytime, but I'm not really worried about it. They will do what they will do. But to know where I stand in their eyes is very refreshing, even if its not good news.
I realize that in the big scheme of things I am only a semi-skilled no-name clerical worker on the back side of thirty, who got mouthy with his supervisors. No grand illusions on this end of the keyboard.
On the other hand, for a shy, passive-aggressive person to stand up to abusive people is a big deal.It does not matter if they yell at me or fire me, because inside, I have already won. Sometimes a small moral victory is the best that we can hope for...
Thanks for reading...
Purgatory: A place of suffering and torment with an unknown duration. In Roman Catholic Theology-the place where the dead are purified from their sins.
By Rage Against The Machine